Ray J - One Wish

Was goin thru my youtube fav songs... 1 of the song was Ray J's - One Wish... The lyrics is veri meaningful... Haf u ever asked urself, if you r granted 1 wish, wat will it be??

Ray J - One Wish




Damn baby...
Just don't understand where we went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul

I gave you...

As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first
It was about eight years ago, don't act like you don't know
We were sittin' at home in your mama's livin' room

Cause, we couldn't be alone

See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt
Back then we were in school; and that's your favourite excuse
Growin' up I was a fool; and I can't lie I'm missing you
Listen and don't trip
I think I need a bottle with a genie in it
Here's my wish list...


First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin

If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you

If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby

If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time


If I had one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish

One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish


Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in
If so then searchin' I’ll go, then I can have you for sure
Then you’ll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So girl don’t tell me what I’m feeling is make believe

I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn’t know what to doI’d probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn’t be alone because without you I’m sick
Here’s my wish list...

First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I’ll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin

If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you

If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby

If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time

If I had one wish...


I don’t even know how we ended upon this road
And, even though we are grown, Girl I just want you to know...


If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin

If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you

If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby

If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time

Last day 4 CGH n KKH trainees...

(Currently sittin in front of the comp @ 2215hrs wid a Kimchi Ramen in hand... Feelin hungry wid a silly toothache buggin me 4 the last 3 days... Been affectin my mood... Contemplating whether 2 slp late so tat can skip relative's weddin @ JB... Wakaka!! Havin EVIL tots... Hee...)

2day marks the last day of the CI trainees from CGH n KKH attachment in SGH... It was sad yet touching occasion... It was my last time sittin down wid Shikin n Lina in the staff tea room of 64S when I realised somethin... Their fav conversational tag like... Somethin tat pple don realise but i tend 2 pick up... It was funni... But tis r the things tat i'll miss of them... The bond we had together... Argghh!! (Gettin a little Emo hoere aren't we?? Hee...)

Let's go thru some of the tag line tat I've observe... (Sori to those tat i was unable 2 observe... Juz realised them tis morning...)

Shikin:
- "Aku suka sekali!" ( Translate: I like it alot!)
- " Wah Chey! Wah Chey!"
- " On my God!"
- "Stop it eh!"
- " Chill the turtle..."

Jia Lina:
- "Tak boleh tahan you know!"
- " My Goodness!"

Rashidah:
- "Ape nama?" (Translate: What's the name?)
- " Mak ka...u!"

Hayati:
- " Bodoh macam biskut!" (Translate: Stupid like biscuit)
- " Copat Sikit!" (Translate: Faster a bit!)

Had last breakfast with the grp... Minus Selvi - Excuse due to Deepavali preparations, Yuting - Excuse due to Driving test n Rashidah - Excuse due to child haviing chicken pox....

We had Nasi Lemak n Otah2 sponsored by Kak Leha (Zaleha) n Kak Mala (Noormala)... Drinks sponsored by Diana n Irene... Potato filled Epok2 by Zahrin... Argghh!! Gonna miss every1....

Every1 is present except 4 Kee Cheng (She's in the toilet when havin tis shot...)
2 my frenz... Spot me!! Hee...

(PS: U gals will be missed veri much!! Gd Luck every n b the bez CIs 2 our future generation!! Keep it up!! Thanks 4 the last 2 months... Every1 had been lovely, caring and helpful... I will cherish tis frenship...)

Lately....

I've been havin difficulty breathin lately... Not as in physically... But coz I've got lotsa activity 2 attend 2... Let's start of from last Mon...

Mon (13th Oct)
ECG Interpretation test... 1 of the worst Nursing related test tat I've sat 4... I tink i was gonna fail... Graphs n small boxes does not work well wid me... Haha... Every1 was in no mood 2 get back 2 werk after tat...

Wed (15th Oct)
CPR & AED certification test... Woohoo!! Excellentee!! I pass wid "Flyin Colours"... 1 of the top 2 in theory... 19 out of 20... How bout tat?? I was tellin Qen... If I had 2 read tat manual another 4th or 5th time, trust me... I'll tear it apart... Burn it... Then Drink the ash... Wakaka!! Did I mention tat every1 was crude?? Like literallly crude?? Boi Boi la... Circumcision la... Adoi!! Mengucap korang eh... Taubat... Taubat... Wakaka!! Cik Zahrin n Cik Yani... Suke awak eh...

Thur (16th Oct)
NCCS Presentation worth 10%... Gez wat?!! I Scored full marks!! Wah!! Lucky or wat... The slides presented was so last min coz I prepared it onli the nite b4... Impresssive I muz say... Breast Augmentation... Cool...

Fri (17th Oct)
Trainin wid Wild Catz!! Woohooo!! Didn't sweat much though coz train was onli like 4 1hr n 15 mins?? Onli played half court... So called made it in2 the team... Kinda glad eventhough in the reserves coz I still God Damn dunnoe anythin bout the game... Xin appointed me as GS... Wat eva tat means... I'll try my bez k?? Need 2 keep myself fit... Navy blue n white... I like... Underground... Woohoo!! Surprise pple....

Sat (18th Oct)
Date wid Shah... Went 2 get prezzies... Had lunch @ Swensen's... Kecoh Banget... I bet u're prayin tat u wish u don noe me... My "First Lady" for PRG (People's Republic of Gilerness)... N Wanita Melayu terakhir... I'm the President!! M.O.M r official citizens... Asked Hui Gek if she would join... Kena 1 word... "Siao!!" Dunnoe y so hype up n crazy tat day... Most pple cannot tahan my crazieness... Wakaka!! Need a bed in IMH... If i'm admitted... Pls brg me Banana wokie?? Wakaka!! Aunt in hospital.. Let's hope it's not wat i tink it is... I'm prayin... Tuky Tuky?? Damn lazy 2 queue despite it being free...

Sun (19th Oct)
Impromptu makan outin wid family n maternal uncles n aunties... Get down 2 Tanjung Adang (Gelang Path, JB)... Wootz!! Wonderfulness... Seafood... Gd ambience plus HUNGER!! Everythin seems 2 fall in2 place... I like... Slp... Slp n more slp...


Tues (21st Oct)
Yeahness!! Makan outing wid the CIs... I tell u... We r crazie... YES!! Crazie pple...
Was the loudest @ Sakura... OMG... Laughter after laughter... The award ceremony was oh so superb... I like... Oh Ya!! Congrats 2 my "Dr. K" 4 passin ur TP test... Alhumdulliah!! Can I HITCH a ride?? Wakaka!! Muke tak malu ehk I... Still afraid of bikes though... Wakaka!! Some "pple" were emo after the ECG test results... (Don 1 2 mention names... Wakaka!! U noe who u r eh... Leave me a tag... Wakaka!!) Gonna mish u peps!! 1000hrs tea breaks... 1200hrs lunch breaks @ Club 69... Will b long gone... Sob... Sob... 1 asssessment down... 1 more 2 go... 2 CIs, I'll update the photo soon kz?? I need a better picture uploader so tat i can categorize my pictures... Pls b patient...

Tat's all... Tataz...

I would like 2 shout out 2 2 of my bez buddies...


HAPPI 20th B'DAE 2 SHAF N FIR!! WISHING U GUYS GOOD LUCK N BEST OF WISHES 4 IN UR FUTURE ENDEAVOURS!!

Happi B'dae 2 u... Happi B'dae 2 u... Happi B'dae 2 Shaf n Fir...
Happi B'dae 2 u...

So sori... Hope u guys can understand... Gotta push back ur celebrations coz I'll onli b free after the 17th... Sori...

My love 4 Nursing...

2day is juz 1 of those days which i felt like i shouldn't haf woken up... My mom suddenly told me tat she had always knew tat my heart was neva in nursing... Tat realli hit me hard... Like realli HARD... I can't help it but 2 break down n cry... I wondered y muz she do tis? I was juz gettin comfortable n lovin nursing n she had 2 do tis??!! I didn't noe wat's her motive... I juz went thru a rough patch durin the last 2 days... Tryin 2 search myself n try 2 find out wat my mistakes was n I had 2 b put down flat... Was realli in no mood 2 werk 2day...

Then wat's the point of me pursuing my degree then?? Goin thru the CI Course then?? Tat's the qns she posted 2 me... Sometimes, i tink tat my mom don understand me... Now i feel like a failure wid no motive in life... It made me rethink bout my life...

Wat haf i been doin during the last 6 yrs?? Was my passion n contribution 2 nursing considered nullified??

Wat i tink of nursing?? Somehow i find tis feelin diminished in most nurses tat i noe... I apologise 2 those wid tis mindset b4 hand... They took up nursing... They took up bond... They finish bond... They left nursing... They join other industry coz nursing is juz a steppin stone n ticket 2 other country...

I tink of nursing as a job tat gives... If u had placed me in an elderly hm 4 the aged... I tink I'll b veri BLESSED...(Alhumdullilah!!) 2 b surrounded by old pple... They r the 1s tat drives me n kept me motivated... Like Mr. X tat i bathed tis mornin...

The job satisfaction i had was from direct nursing care...Keepin in touch wid patient... Holding them... Touching them... My need 2 pursue further in knowledge was my thirst 4 knowledge... How i can help n do better 4 the patient... But the mindset tat my mom had was b'coz i wanted 2 rise in ranks... Sure!! Mayb i would love 2 someday... When I'm tired... But not soon... Coz i'm afraid tat the feelin might juz die off in me n leave me empty... I dunnoe whether i should b angry...

I'm not suppose 2 b criticising my mom... It's juz tat mayb some pple still tink it tat way... Knowledge = Ranks... Well... I don... Even if after aquirin knowledge n u place me in a rural area wid veri sick pple n low pay... I'll b glad 2 do it... Tat's how I'm showing how far i would go 4 nursing... Nursing is my Life n I'm Lovin' It...

Had a talk wid 1 of my students last wk... Being 17, i was shocked tat he has a mindset of a 40yrs old... Wat he said left me thinkin... The passion 4 nursing will never die... But u haf 2 tink @ the age of 30, the mind is willing... But the body is weak... N when u're 40 tis will continue 2 deteriorate... Tat's when i'll tink bout managerial role... But while i still haven reach 40.. I want 2 care 4 patients as much as possible... Tat's wat i'm tinkin now...

My tributes to all the nurses tat i noe from all walks of life n hospitals n the motivation tat keeps them moving in nursing... May Allah bless u with Health, Courage n Strength... Amin... Insya-allah...

My schedule for October 2008

Schedule October 2008

Attention 2 those who would like 2 "date" me... Hee... Here's my schedule 4 tis mth till end Nov...

9th Oct - Werk (0800-1600) then Class (1800-2100)
10th Oct - Werk (0800-1600) Tutor "BIG" Sister (1700 - Don noe when)
13th Oct - Exam (0800-0900) Werk (1000-1600) Class (1800-2100)
15th Oct - Werk (0800-1300) then Exam (1300-1700)
16th Oct - Werk (0800-1600) then Presentation (1700-2100)
17th Oct - Werk (0800-1600) then Training (1700 - Don noe when)
21st Oct - Werk (1800-1600) then Makan Outing wid CI Trainees (1800 - Don noe when)
2nd Nov - BigWalk on Water (0800 - Don noe when)
4th Nov - Contemplating whether 2 take AL on tis day or not...
5th Nov - Werk (1800-1600) then Night Safari (1700- Don noe when)
11th Nov - Exam (1000 - 1200) then Werk (1300-1600)
27th Nov - 29th Nov - Werk Chalet @ Costa Sands Sentosa
So memorized tis schedule if u wanna date me kz?? Ttow!!

Veri Depressed...

I juz don understand wat's wrong wid her... I didn't raise my voice... I didn't scold her... All i did was juz 2 gif my feedback... Was tat wrong??!! I was tryin hard 2 figure out the freakin APIE... Assessment, Planning, Implementation n Evaluation... Suddenly she broke down... N tat was yesterday... I juz don understand... I felt weak when she cried... Y??

2day, all i did was 2 say, "My Condolences..." N she cried again.... Wah!! Wat freakin went wrong?? I felt totalli drained tinkin bout it... It suxs BIG time... I felt freakin demoralized when she told me tat she felt demoralized 2... Wat was my mistake?? Was it coz i didn't point it out?? I'm tryin 2 learn here...

Teachin is juz not me... All i feel now is veri demoralized... Energy totalli drained... Encouragements?? Juz encouragements... Am i takin it 2 hard?? It's easier 4 u 2 say... Y i'm easily affected?? I juz wanted 2 b nice... Is tat difficult?? God gif me strength... 2 more wks n it'll b over...
Juz 2 more wks...

Special!!

ATTENTION!!
FOR CLINICAL INSTRUCTORS 4TH INTAKE 2 TAKE NOTE...

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Feelin Gweat!!

Currently feelin' GWEAT!! Ya rite... I'm sick... S.I.C.K!! On MC 2day... Dr. K said got the viral fever... Sucks lor... Actualli tekan MC coz havin mild headache n bodyaches... Sekali check temp... Fever sia!! Congrats n Gd Luck 2 mua...

Last module starts 2day... It's Mr.S!! Mish him sey... Last time he taught me my repeat mod... Every1 was like fierce sia tis lecturer... Haha... Nobody noe him like a few of us... Pple like me... He's SWeEt!! I remember wat he did 4 me during his last lesson wid us...

He kept on wavin lor juz now when teachin us... Wakaka!! U pple might tink tat I HAF TIS HUGE CRUSH on him... Pls la... He's G... So u noe mcm girl look up 2 girl sorta thing... I like his tinkin... Everytime I attend his lecture, my NURSINg ALTER EGO was like sky rocket ar... Nurses rights n every was in my head...

I was like, THANK GOD somebody is tinkin like me... Onli tat i chose 2 b silent... Y coz when i spoke out once, it had lotsa "GOOD" things lined up 4 me... Haiz... Tokin bout bad memories...

Last wk was like old memories coming back 2 me wk... Went out wid old "Fren", my beloved niece, who went missing coz the Dad merajok, visited tis Hari Raya, meetin my "Cikgu"... I was tellin my mom... Is death awaiting me?? My mom was like CHOI!! I dunnoe... Been havin butterflies in my stomach... But wat's the reason 4...

Wating 4 2nd Nov... It'll b AWESOME I tell u... Gez won't b in my tudung tat day... Gotta sweat it out BABY!!

Oh ya... Muz take pics wid the Bachelors Babes... Last wk of sch... Actualli still got next wk but officially, lessons ends tis Thurs... Gonna Mish disturbing Punitha Ka... Hee... She'll hate me 4 tis... Babbling wid Nishi n Sweety... Disturbing Rachel bout her hubby... Haiz... Gone were the dayz...

Rushing from werk 2 sch... The long ride from werk 2 sch... I'm gonna Mish those days... It makes me wat I am 2day... Knowledge was neva easy 4 u 2 seek... Ya... Memories n reminising 'em...

Confused...

Feelin veri confused 4 the last 2 days... Like realli CONFUSED... Am I tinkin 2 much or has my brain cells been totalli FRIED?? Wat was my feeling when I met u?? Tat smile never failed 2 sweep me off my feet... I felt like a DWARF... I felt veri SMALL... SHOCKED by ur gestures... Neva had u acted tat way... HAPPY engulfed by FEAR... But 2 bad... All u said was tat, those gestures meant nothin... I need an answer b4 i can move on... I 1 2 MOVE ON... Don leave me hanging coz I'm veri TIRED... My fren... If we're meant 2 b... We're meant 2 b... SICK, TIRED & CONFUSED... Qen (If u happen 2 read my blog)... Thanks 4 giving me advise beb... I need pple 2 hit me like a TROUT!! WAKE UP UR IDEA SRI!!